Undertale (or, the Game that Changed My Life)
Happy late 10th Anniversary, UNDERTALE. This game means a lot to me. I've been thinking about it a lot as of late.
My dad passed away 5 years ago. It didn't affect me much, but I think of it often. I think of the woman I would've, or could've been if my father was still around.
A line in the stream especially stuck with me.
“It can't have been a year already.”
“It can't have been 5 years already.”
“I don't want to keep growing up... Not without you.”
My dad wasn't the best person. I'll refrain from details, but I think that's important to know. My childhood wasn't the best, either. I didn't really have friends. The internet was what nurtured me.
I was 7 when I discovered UNDERTALE. I thought it was so cool. I remember being shocked someone on their own could make a whole game... Especially one as amazing as it.
I hate for this to sound corny, but UNDERTALE really shaped me as a person. I felt so seen by this game, so seen by someone who I've never met and likely never will. I wanted to be a better person, a kinder person. A person who chooses to act with mercy and love rather than fight.
I love DELTARUNE for similar reasons. Chapter 2 came out a year after my dads' passing, and was a reason I kept going. I wanted to stay alive to see this project finish, to at least play one more chapter. I still want to. I want to be alive regardless of what the future holds, because I know deep down it'll be okay. Does that make sense?
I'm not sure if it does. I hope it does. I hope maybe you feel the same about something important to you. I'll write again soon. Bye for now,
-Marina